Finally..

Sigh... sigh... sigh...

Duh.. lega deh, akhirnya satu beban terlepas juga dari hati.. tinggal beresin yang lain..
It's just a game of confession, a fortune bet, nothing to lose anyway..
Although i didn't make it, i'd never lose my faith to discover the meaning of 'The Four Letters'..
Hahaha.. EUREKA !!!!!

It's Funny.. It's my Life

"You say little things mean so much to you, like walk in the park, when we talk till it's dark.. and those little things make me fall for you.."


Pagi ini.. gue menikmati saat-saat terakhir di kantor. Yup, moving.. moving.. moving. "HerLin, kamu diterima, dan nantinya kamu akan menangani AMDAL pertambangan kami... " duh duh.. could i ? harus bisa HerLin, kamu bisa.. and what i feel ? Lega dan kaget.. Awal yang bagus di tahun 2005..
(Eh, nggak ding, sebelum itu sudah ada surprise dari tupik dan bikin gue bengong sepanjang malam. hehee.. thanks ya pik, finally.. gue bisa tau gimana rasanya... bla-bla-bla qui-sera-sera... )

Setelah semalam batal dating, gue akhirnya nongkrong di coffee shop Margonda sama Ana. ya.. gue dan ana jalan lagi. Pertikaian yang pernah membuat ana sangat-sangat marah dan kecewa.. tapi dengan besar hati dia datang untuk menjalin lagi pertemanan kami.. i miss you Ana, too much.. i'm very glad to have you back..

Dan balik lagi ke kantor yang akan gue tinggalkan, kurang lebih satu tahun gue disini, dengan segala macam perasaan, pengalaman, udah memberikan pelajaran berharga buat gue. At least, i've known the audio-video world, tau internet dan yang paling penting .. di sini gue bisa kenal sama tupik.. (yang akhirnya memberi gue gelar best friend... )

I feel my life's already completed, my friends, my job, my parents, my self.... hampir mendekati kata "cukup"
and all the awful feelings suddenly dismissed....
i used to say, "why do i always have to pay my little happiness with thousand tears ?" but now.. i convinced my self not to say those words again... cause the life that's been chosen for me.. is real good.. real fun.. real adventureus.. real funny.. it's my Life....

From Up till Drowned

From Up till Drowned

Hari ini.. perasaan gue semua kumpul jadi satu.. seneng, sebel, plong, ngadat... huh..

Just a People Person

i am a little creature who wants to know how the world works..
alone i come into the crowd, picking one or two hands to hold on..
knowing them, learn from them, show them that i'm exist..

some may lead my way to reach my star, and some others just left me crawling in the dark.
in every hello and goodbye, i find that even it's hard to get through.. still life is beautiful, the color of it could grant you happiness and tears..

at the end, i might discover my self as a little creature who wants to know how the world works..

"all by my self.. don't wanna be.. all by myself.. anymore "
i am just a people person

Life is Beautiful

My friend, Tupik, said.. "Life is Beautiful".. though i knew that he through so many obstacles these days.. still he said so
My friend, Baba, said.. "Friendship is Forever".. and he's been betrayed by some of his mates.. still he said so
My dear friend Eghi,said.."Men are suck".. but keeping on flirting somebody else's lover.. still she said so

Apapun bentuknya, gue harus belajar mensyukuri hidup dan semua komponen pembentuknya, sebelum jatah waktu gue habis. Who knows what's gonna happend in the next minutes of life ?

Cups of coffee

1.. 2.. five cups of caffein flowing through my vein
tak pernah terfikir, sangat terbelenggu pada satu senyawa yang bisa memacu silumen otak gue. mungkin bila manusia butuh oxygen untuk memacu kerja otak, gue hanya butuh caffein-sedikit oxygen dan sedikit faktor x
belenggu atau kecanduan ? subtle difference..

tiga hari ini, gue kehilangan teman untuk berbagi cerita
i hope he could deal with his troubles, so i could get him back
yah.. tiga hari saja udah begini, gimana nanti, if he really goes 127 miles away...

don't do this to me again.. pliss G.. no more..

Where The Wind Blows

Following where the wind blows.. nggak punya prinsip, nggak punya rencana, nggak punya pendirian.. ?? whateverrr.. that's what i'm doing now.
Tak perlu dibebankan oleh angan-angan yang harus terwujud
Tak perlu dibikin pusing oleh situasi yang rumit
biar semua mengalir sesuai arus, memposisikan diri pada tempatnya

Kadang gue percaya bahwa nasib tidak akan berubah, kalau kita tidak berusaha untuk itu
Tapi, gak ada salahnya membiarkan nasib menentukan jalan dan arah kita

i have my friends around, that's enough for now..

Nothing Last Forever

Mencari dan terus mencari arti kata.. "tidak ada yang abadi"
kata hati ingin menyangkal, tetapi kenyataan berkata lain
teman, kasih sayang, cinta.. bahkan sahabat..
hanya ungkapan dan curahan semu..

akankah ada yang abadi ?
i'll keep on searching and figure it out..